This morning was foggy in Cambodia, at least for me. I was awakened to a pounding on my door that startled me from a deep slumber caused by the sleeping drugs I had taken the night before. I had missed a meeting and was late for breakfast. Yea, jet-lag can be brutal! I was awake, but the fog was thick in my mind. I hate that feeling.
And it seemed like the fog just wouldn't lift no matter how many cups of coffee I drank. It continued as I listened to issues from our on-the-ground managers and prayed with them about how to best handle the problems they are facing in our programs. The fog didn't clear as we arrived at the village and saw that the water tanks are empty after a long dry season, leaving no drips for the children in our school to wash their hands, much less drink. The haze intensified as I learned of issues with the bio-sand water filtration units at the villager's homes. To be honest, it seemed that everywhere my eyes looked, I saw the fog. Not only did I see it, my heart felt foggy; my focus felt clouded; my hope carried a heaviness that hung with the humid misty morning dew.
All day I struggled with the feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy about the work before us. Throughout the day, I tried to shake the fog. I wanted to see clearly. God has been at work here in mighty ways; but I couldn't see it through the haze that hung. I longed to have sharp focus that could address the issues with clarity. But clarity seemed to allude my grasp and the fog settled into my mind and my heart for the day.
I am ending the day still feeling foggy. Would you pray with me about the fog? I know it's strange. I am asking the Lord to blow the fog away. I am asking Him to meet us in the midst of the fog and for His Spirit to be present in dynamic ways as we make our way through the fogginess of ministry right now. Would you pray with me about that...even if sounds strange or is something that sounds irrational...I don't feel very rational right now.
The rest of our team arrives on Tuesday from the cultural training they have been a part of in Phnom Penh. Please pray that the Lord powerfully moves in and through our team as ministry begins in the village. We are excited to host VBS for the children and conduct the village's first eye clinic.
Thanks for praying friends! I'm thankful for the fog and so look forward to seeing how God will use it out here.
Trusting in the fog...